That picture above is not my actual car at the time.
Since I’ve been chasing this sobriety journey, I’ve been trying to post periodically about all my flaws while drinking excessively, partially as a reminder to myself. Here’s one.
And here we go with one from mid-May 2022.
Let me give you some context to set this thing up.
My wife and I had done IVF from February 2022 to April 2022. In April, we found out it didn’t work. I was kinda depressed this entire cycle because I was the cause/reason for us having to do IVF in the first place, and now we spent about $18,500 and had nothing to show for it except a crappy call from a nurse at a fertility clinic and a bunch of tears.
The day after IVF failed, I led this workout for F3 near the TCU baseball stadium. This kid Kevin Lynch, who is now running for School Board in Fort Worth, was pretty nice to me about everything that happened. So was this kid Nick Stamas. Other than that, no one seemed to give even the remotest shit. To double down on that, the after-workout was familial in nature, so I was surrounded by kids. Fucking crazy. I have no idea why I did this on this specific day. I still sometimes wonder this to myself in idle moments.
I actually wrote this about Lynch after that workout, although at this particular moment of writing this post, I don’t really have the same fuzzies about him. I’m a trifling bitch.
3. This was probably mid-April 2022 now. The next few weeks were just kinda depressing.
4. Sometime around early May 2022, a few different things happened that will seem horribly inconsequential from afar:
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