The Derps Are Undefeated

Woe is me, but not really.

Been on a multi-year infertility arc, which is admittedly depressing at times (and at other times, like most of life’s problems, you barely think about it at all), and have done IVF twice (2022 and 2023), both of which failed. I don’t, at this moment, see a biological path for me as a dad. I can definitely see some type of life involving kids, but they may be kids of friends and neighbors. And while maybe that wasn’t the way it seemed scripted for me at one point, it’s where you end up. I understand and have mostly processed it, although on some days, it’s harder than others. Honestly, drinking less has been helpful for me in this way, because over-indulging on booze usually brings out the wrong, depressive feelings tied to this stuff.

OK, so with that introduction, allow me a tiny bit of “woe is me” shit for a second. It will not last long. You might even learn something about life.